As Carolee at PDW says “time for our confessions! it’s confession tuesday, which means we acknowledge that confession is a part of our creative process.” Join us with your own confessions, just let PDW know so she can add you to the confessions blog roll.
(This is my first go at this and my knees feel a little trembly.)
- My knees are actually knocking pretty hard
- I’m having trouble getting into a healthy eating and exercise routine. To me this means that I need to pay attention to what’s going on internally. The problem isn’t time, opportunity or lack of knowledge. After a bit of introspection I realize that as grateful and energized as I am with my new found health and freedom I am also bumping up against my fears related to being more active in the world again. Scared, just plain scared of failure, rejection . . .
- I haven’t done much writing for quite a while. It’s starting to feel like a huge empty space in the middle of my gut.
- I’m overwhelming myself with all the things I want to start doing. Well, maybe that’s not quite right. I think I am overwhelming myself with the pressure I put on myself to get things done RIGHT NOW.
- I have been meaning to ask my neighbor (the one with the chickens) if he wanted to come together with us in a joint effort to create a community garden. I finally did it! I’m excited, this is something I have dreamed about for so long without ever taking any action. The wheels have started to turn!
- Me, the one who talks about creating community and all that stuff, has a neighbor she would like to see disappear from the universe. He’s the one without the chickens. What he does have is a loud voice and an uninformed opinion about EVERYTHING. I don’t really want to share bell peppers and tomatoes with him.
-I’ve decided to go back to school. I’ll be applying to a counseling program – I am confessing to wanting to be a therapist – Yep, me with all my fears and other psychological eccentricities. My goal is to become a group specialist with a holistic view of people and their environment.
- I love my volunteer work and today I found out it may turn into a part time job. I’ll find out by the end of next week. The woman who runs the program is one of my heroes, she is so damn good at what she does. She is one of those women who is strong, assertive, while still kind and loving.
That’s all the confession I can muster this week 
Tags: community, Confession Tuesday, exercise, fear, food, school, therapist, Volunteer, work, writing
January 15, 2008 at 7:39 pm |
It’s nice to hear you confess some great things happening in your life. Congrats on the beginnings of a garden, and the part-time job, and going back to school. All very good things.
As for the writing, it will come. Because you miss it means that it’s of value to you. You’ll write when you’re ready.
January 16, 2008 at 7:40 am |
i don’t know if you can see it or hear it (because of the knocking knees) but these confessions reveal such beautiful parts of yourself. truly. i’m so glad you’re playing along with confession tuesday.
i’ve started a book you may be interested in: it’s by julia cameron (of the artist’s way/morning pages fame). it’s called “the write diet: write yourself right-size” … it has some really excellent points to make about connecting with ourselves and how that’s powerful enough to make us want to exercise our bodies and fuel them with healthy diet.
January 16, 2008 at 4:32 pm |
I think I understand, a cure is very scary with so many options. I’ll be taking notes and cheering you on. School and part time…woohoo! XXOO
January 16, 2008 at 6:26 pm |
J: I don’t think I can stay away from writing much longer – it’s such a big part of my sanity!
P: Thank you – (blush) , and thanks for the book suggestion. I didn’t know Cameron had anything new out. It sounds like it is a good vehicle for the kind of introspection I need to do.
T: Thanks you so much for your support, it means a lot to me. I am cheering for you too.
January 17, 2008 at 10:34 am |
Zowie! THose confession are more like mission statements! I feel strenghth in them. I do . I think you are feeling overwhelmed because you are feeling so much better ,,you just don’t know what to do first! ha ha! ..remember…2008 is a year of positive change!
January 17, 2008 at 1:23 pm |
many blessings to you. i am so happy for you about the community garden, volunteer position becoming p/t, and pursuing a counseling career. wow …. you are inspiring. i love to read confessions. i think they are souletry – poetry from the soul. enjoy the day and weekend. peace and poetry, ananda
January 17, 2008 at 5:58 pm |
that is a lot of confession and they are wonderful, really wonderful … much like you
xox
January 17, 2008 at 7:07 pm |
You are living an amazing life! I love hearing about all the different ways your life is unfolding.
By they way, have you ever thought about yoga and breathwork for your exercise? It’s non-competetive, and so good for those inspiring, creative thoughts. Plus, once you know a bit of it, you can also practice in your own home, or when you’re travelling. One of my passions is yoga, in case I haven’t told you!
Maybe you should write a poem about Mr. Grump in your neighborhood. Each character could be a different veg in the garden. Which one would he be? Kale? (Tough and bitter!)
Thank you for sharing all these wonderful aspects of your life. I see them as petals on your flower.
January 17, 2008 at 8:10 pm |
Wow, I feel so bad. I only confessed to reading an entire US Weekly while getting my hair dyed! You did some amazing things this week!!!
Kristi
January 18, 2008 at 7:06 am |
I was so sure I commented. My apologies. I affirm you get the job. Eating right and exercising is about lifestyle and that’s a process. Commit to better living because you love yourself and you can choose to love yourself everyday. And know you have company.
January 18, 2008 at 7:07 am |
Happy Friday!
Speaking about writing more. Please join us at The Last Piaster. Our aim is to present writing exercises designed to sharpen old poetic tools and provide you with new ones. New piasters will be posted on Sundays. Periodically, we’ll ask permission to share your drafts.
January 18, 2008 at 7:30 pm |
Hello
Could you stop by PWB and let me know how your I Promise Blogroll is going. This is your chance to change groups, drop out, or just confirm to me that your are happy on the list you currently belong to. Please let me know.
http://poetswhoblog.blogspot.com/2008/01/i-promise-blogroll-check-in.html
Sara
January 20, 2008 at 10:25 am |
If we didn’t have things to confess, we wouldn’t know what we really want in our lives!!! I’d say you’ve got some really wonderful things to turn your attention to, as you want!
February 2, 2008 at 9:39 am |
Tap..tap..Knock…Where are you?